A student, teacher and friend of mine reflected back to me recently that he thought I was not afraid to fail.
That reflection kind of stopped me in my tracks. I’ve been thinking about that a lot recently. Rolling it over and over in my mind. Am I afraid to fail? Yes. No. Maybe. Yes, of course I am sometimes. Who’s not afraid to fail? No, there’s just a particular path I’m on and that’s the general direction I’m journeying. And, well, maybe both. The tinge of possible failure arises and recedes as I remember what I’m really called to do and I sometimes experience the waffle back and forth between the two.
When you consider the opposite of failure is success. Accomplishing. Achieving. Winning. Very destination oriented and bl...
Smooth water, then in rolls a tsunami. Happiness, curiosity, gratitude, excitement, love, contentment. And, then in washes sadness, anger, loneliness, jealousy, self-criticism, fear, or rejection. Almost as if from a different part of the greater ocean.
Can we sit with that? Like we can sit with the smoother waters?
I’ve found that the journey between these emotions can be as short as a few breaths or as long as we want to make them. The way our breath and the full light of our consciousness can help us through challenging times shows up in our willingness to be with what we feel. It’s less about changing our feelings and more about our willingness to let them be exactly as they are. One of our greatest assets along this jo...
Today, I heard someone suggest we should separate from our day. To separate from our to-do list. For a few minutes to partition the aspects we wanted. That we prefer. And, I get it. Our days are busy. Our to-do lists are full, fast and anxiety-producing. How are you? Busy. How are you? Busy. Don’t we all just want to separate?
Yoga means to yoke. To bring together. To bring all the pieces of our lives in. All of them. Not to separate from the pieces of ourselves, but to draw them in. Connection. Like water molecules collecting up with other water molecules. We are made up of more than 70% water, and were born with this inherent desire to be attracted to the different aspects of ourselves.
To step away from the responsibilities and complications of our every day living and breathe into another part of our lives can bring with it that much needed ahhhhhh, comfort, and, often enough, discomfort too.
We are used to a full and fast-paced this is often overwhelming.
Recently, I left my day-to-day life to travel to India for 3 weeks. Upon pulling in after traveling for 2 days, I stopped to check in at the front desk of my resort – at 3 am local time – anxious to get to bed and rest. And what did I find? I was greeted with a necklace of local flowers and a coconut and asked to sit and relax for a moment. I could see there were a few others that had just arrived as well, in front of me. C’mon C’mon C’mon, What’s takin...
Why are we here? What is this life for? Where do we come from? Where do we return to? How can we live fully and deeply? How can I make sense of this life journey? For almost 20 years Yoga has been this practice for me, and this is one of the many reasons I wanted to come to the birthplace of this practice: INDIA.
This practice is not fancy asana photos in faraway places. Its not wearing the newest yoga trend. It’s not something that takes place on Instagram. It’s not something that someone else has that we can get.
Yoga is considered ‘a practice’. Not ‘a perfect’. Yoga is the practice of union. To yoke. To bring together. To quiet and clarify long enough to feel the tipping points that pull us in either dire...
whole·ness /ˈhōlnəs/ noun
1. the state of forming a complete and harmonious whole; unity.
2. the state of being unbroken or undamaged.
What is it to be whole? To feel whole. To be in harmony. To sync our awareness to where our bodies actually are in space and time. To feel a sense of enoughness with what we already have, with what our bodies are currently offering, with our circumstances and lives exactly as they are. To feel our full body rather than breaking apart its separate pieces. To call up all of the scattered pieces of ourselves into one. To accept even the darkest bits that we’ve thrown far from ourselves.
Eleanor Roosevelt said the past is history the future is a mystery and the present moment is a gift. Clear as...
I’ve somehow recently been catapulted into ‘The Years are Short’ part of this phrase. For 10 years I feel like I’ve been living in the ‘The Days are Long’ part. And, I’m reminded again, how my children are possibly the greatest teachers I’ve ever had.
When my son turned 10 last week, I was stopped in my tracks a few different times with tears of absolute joy, surprising sadness, and deep heart-felt sentimentality.
1-0. 10 years. A whole decade of living. A group of years that often felt long, lonely and hard. Definitely with less sleep than the previous 10. A period of time where I often struggled to find myself within the mix of all that needed to be done. A period of time where I had sunset anxiety because I wasn’t...
As a mother of two little boys, we are often around nerf guns. After all, I have two small storage bins dedicated to organizing them in our play room. Both of my boys are aware that Friday and Sunday nights are “nerf night” at Cloud 10 (a local indoor trampoline club). And, they are often trading nerf guns with their friends on playdates.
Yesterday my youngest son (age 5) took a nerf gun in the car and wanted to bring it into the stores with us as we ran our afternoon errands. My oldest son (age 9) promptly told him he could not do that. My youngest asked “why not.” And, my oldest said, “because today people are using guns to hurt each other, and we just can’t do that anymore.”
This short exchange stopped me in my tracks. My oldes...
When I drew the enchantment card last night, it took me a minute for it to resonate with me that the deepest message it was sending me was to SLOW DOWN.
I almost laughed out loud because I’ve been running around squeezing in extra carpools, extra games, extra classes, extra appointments, extra end of school year items. Lots and lots of extras. Which in turn has left me feeling overscheduled, overbusy, overtired.
I have been feeling it, but haven’t been willing to listen to my own feeling. When we don’t listen to our inner guidance system, then we often pay a more expensive price than being honest with ourselves. The way we don’t listen to ourselves begins to cost more physically, mentally, emotionally. Saying things we w...
Growing up I was always drawn to athletic pastimes. Dancing, gymnastics, basketball, track, waterskiing, snow skiing, triathlons, marathons, etc.. Through high school, into college and even into my early adult years, I was a very competitive basketball player. And, still to this day I love the game so much that I volunteer as my 9 year olds basketball coach. Early on, I found these various physical outlets as a way to unwind stress and tension. A sense of confidence building. A way to work and connect with others. An outlet for the intensity that I have always had. And, I LOVE being embodied. Getting out of my head. Being in the zone. Connecting to the present moment. Dropping the analysis of the rest of my life.